"I am proud of
the woman I am today; I went through one hell of a time to become
her."
I started this blog 6 years ago this month. Hopefully, I
have some new readers and/or followers so I thought I'd write about how this
blog started and my story of how I got here. Get comfy, grab a cup
of coffee, and the iPad. My first blog post was Just
here to tell a story and published on May 21, 2015. The
idea was suggested by a lady in a Weight Watcher meeting. I didn't
know the first thing about writing a blog. But I came up with a name (I
think it suits me since I like anything sparkly and shiny). The idea of this blog was to chronicle this personal
journey of mine.
When I started the blog, I was already down 165 lbs. I lost
that weight in just over a year. Something I couldn't quite fathom or
comprehend. Just a year earlier I had no idea what was in store for
me. It took a serious aha moment to make me sit up and realize this was
serious business. For the better part of my adult life, I used food as a
shield, not wanting to admit it was also the problem. I used it as a
shield from so many things.... dating, rejection, social activities. It
became a security blanket. It never judged me or rejected me.
I ushered 2014 in with some low back pain, thinking it was a
pulled muscle. Then March arrived and told me things were about to
change. A trip to the ER was the beginning of a 6-day hospital
stay. Diabetic sugars of 534 which could have proved to be deadly.
There have been moments when I think if I hadn't gone to the ER when I did, I
would not be here telling you this story.
The next few months were spent adjusting to a new ballgame and its
rules. Soon it became easy, and the weight started dropping. Every
time I stepped on the scale; numbers went down. I hit the first 50, then
100, then 150 lbs. I couldn't believe it. This was what I had
dreamt about. When I stepped on the scale shortly before my 44th
birthday, I was down 165 lbs. I had a decision to make. The
decision of what my goal would be. So, after discussing it with my
doctor, I set what I thought was my final goal. I reached that goal on
Father's Day of 2016. I remember stepping on the scale, feeling tears
streaming down my face. I did it!
There were other surprises in store though. Good
surprises. I started walking half marathons every day, yes which prompted
me to enter my first official half marathon. So, on the day I was to
reach Lifetime, I stepped on the scale and had another decision to make.
I reset what I thought had been my final goal. This final goal
would have me losing 200 lbs. My thinking behind this was I wanted to be
far enough from my starting number that I couldn't see it.
I reached that goal just six months after reaching the first
one. And it was in December before Christmas. What an early
Christmas present!! In January of 2016, I reached Lifetime. The day before weighing in, I walked about
5-6 miles with a friend of mine. We
discussed stepping on the scale and what if the number was too low. I decided to step on the scale first (before
it was registered) and if it was too low, I’d wear my shoes. That did the trick. I weighed in at a number I hadn’t seen since
high school.
My life has been a whirlwind since then. I've learned things
about myself. I've conquered several things I never thought I would
do. Finished 3 half marathons and several other races. Conquered paddle board yoga - read about it here. There have been ups and downs, as with everything, but I try to take
them in stride.
Among some of the
important things I learned was the mental aspect must be worked on as
well. While I was actively losing the
weight, I concentrated on the physical part and neglected the mental side. Because of that, that little voice kept
showing back up. The voice that belonged
to the old me. So, I am working on the
mental side and making sure it’s on the same page as the physical.
I am excited about
the next 50 years. I have plans that just
10 or 15 years ago I couldn’t imagine.
Looking forward to the next 50 years....of course they will be glitter all the weigh.